Dear boyofthemonth

I like you a lot.

I like the way you look at me and how you smile when you joke with me.

I like your laugh and the way you drink your drink.

I like that you order your martinis extra dirty and then get a water right after.

I like that you tell me to not talk down about myself, and I like your voice.

I like that you know what I like to drink.

I like that you were friends with my brother first.

I hate that you were friends with my brother first.

I hate that you’re appealing to anybody with eyes.

I hate that you’re a flirt by nature.

I hate that you know just what to say.

I hate that you know what I like to drink.

I hate that you look at me like that, and I hate how you know how to make me smile.

I hate that you hit every mark on my list of what makes a good man and I hate that I don’t have enough confidence to make you mine.

every time I’m unavailable to see my friends I become plagued with the thought that they think I’m avoiding them and are going to get mad at me and never talk to me again.

I think it may be time to set my stubbornness aside and seek the advice of a pro lol.